Pursuing Peace

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I recently made a huge decision.  I am leaving a career that I love to stay home with my children.  This is not a decision I anticipated making, but life has taken some pretty dramatic turns that we did not foresee.  One of our girls was diagnosed with Autism over a year ago.  Since then, my husband and I have been seeking the appropriate path forward in many ways.

I have been so fortunate to work for a company that gave me such an incredible opportunity to work from home since my girls were six months old.  However, to say that I have struggled to find balance throughout the majority of the past three years would be an understatement.  It was only recently that I realized regardless of the flexibility my job offers – ultimately the job still has to be done – and things are being sacrificed to make it happen.

When we sat down and counted the cost, we realized the things most important to us were consistently being placed on the backburner for the sake of financial security.  Please don’t misunderstand this.  There have been many times in our lives that this decision would not have even been an option.  I also understand that many people love pursuing a career (because I am one of them).  However, for this season in life, my family needs more of my time and attention and they come first.

This was not an easy decision.  In fact, it was one of the most difficult in my life.  I am a planner.  I have been making decisions since grade school to enhance my opportunities of finding a satisfying career only to reach a point of security and walking away from it all.  The mere thought of not having a plan forward is new territory and frightening for me.

However, there are times in your life when you know changes have to be made.  And we have been there for a while.  The truth is we have been missing Peace for a long time.  Brandon and I have dreamed of full-time Ministry for years, but it has seemed like our life path is constantly moving in an entirely different direction.  I still don’t know exactly what God wants to do in our lives.  Neither do I know what the route from Point A to Point B will look like.  I do, however, know that God has given us a clear answer for the question we asked wisdom, guidance and direction for.  I may be out of my comfort zone, but He knows the path that I take and when He has tried me I will come forth as Gold (Job 23:10).

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